Butterflies

Ok, forty-four years old and I am having butterflies today at the thought of my first day of school at Barton college. How silly! Isn't it strange how we can react to the unknown. My insecurities come to the surface in a fierce rush! Crazy! You would think those "voices" that we heard when we were young school age that said the other kids would make fun of you...your clothes are not the coolest...people will laugh at your big nose...you'd think those voices would eventually shut up, wouldn't you! I suppose there is a part of us that just wants to be accepted and do well. Well, at least I am that way.

However, I find peace today knowing that my God loves my big nose...He thinks I am the coolest...and He never makes fun of me, even when I make fun of myself. He loves all my silly jokes that crack myself up and I really think He laughs with me. He loves me - flaws and all. Will I ever get that from my head to my heart? I sure hope so...'cause insecurity is tiresome!